March 04th, 2023

Sometimes you have to just get away.
They say a change is as good as a rest and I have been feeling stagnant with my business and frustrated with the slow pace of my divorce proceedings. 
I don't understand people who say they never go away.Sometimes you have to just change your scenery to re-energise.  
So I spoke to my brothers who live in New York and booked a week away to spend time with them, wander around Manhattan, almost shattering my kneecaps during the process of walking endless kilometres to seek clarity in where I want to go with my business and indeed myself.
The past year has been littered with emotional confusion, financial stress, separation from my children and business anxiety and whilst I haven't been feeling overwhelmed, I haven't been able to focus as my brain is switched on to too many things.
This week, however, I paused. I reflected on how far I have come and where I want to go. 
My business suffered terrible losses due to covid and I lost virtually all my advertisers. I felt sorry for myself, felt angry at the injustice of not being in control of my business that I had grafted to build up so well before the pandemic and I was living in the past.
I realised this week that success comes with planning and execution, something I have always been good at ( shame I can't execute the ex husband).
Instead of focusing on everything I lost I shifted my mindset to everything I have achieved.
As my brothers reminded me, I wrote a bucket list in my 20s of things I wanted to do and I have done them all. I jumped out of a plane over the Great Barrier Reef, I created a large family filled with love, I bought a holiday home in a hot country that  I love, I lost weight and transformed my image, I wrote and published a book, I created an Lifestyle awards ceremony in a city that is now part of their annual business calendar, I set up a magazine in not one country but two.
Basically everything I set my mind to I achieved. I have done it once and I can do it again so I have created a new bucket list. Enough with the procrastinating and self pity. It's time to reclaim my power, my burning ambition to have financial freedom before I am 55 years old, fall in love with someone who shares my desires and embrace the beautiful life I have created.

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