![]() GOODBYE 2024. As another year draws to a close, it’s time to reflect on the last 12 months. It’s 4am as I write this and there’s a quiet stillness that settles over the world—a gentle pause between the fading echoes of the past and the soft murmur of what’s to come. It’s a time of reflection, of taking stock of all that has unfolded, of looking back on the journey before stepping forward into the unknown. What have I achieved? What have I failed at? What have I let go of? I have just finished filming a huge 10 month project which I can’t talk about but hopefully will come to fruition next year. This has taken up most of my year and it’s the biggest secret I have had to keep. But hopefully it will bring the best result I can hope for in 2025. And if it doesn’t, I can honestly say it’s been the most fun project I have worked on and I have made incredible connections from it. It’s been an absolute blast. But for now let’s stay in the present. I am surrounded by my children sleeping peacefully and safely in their beds. There is a biting wind outside but my house is warm and my fridge is full. It fills my heart with joy and gratitude. If there’s one thing I have excelled at, it is being a good mother and achieving everything my own mother wasn’t for me. My kids told me they had one of the best summers of their lives and that is all I could ask for. I listen regularly to the highly inspirational Mel Robbins podcast and yesterday on my 5k walk she was talking about how life is a journey and we don’t have failures, we have experiences. We are exactly where we are meant to be. We all feel “bleugh” at some points and when we have a block we need to pull over and breathe. Take stock of where we want to go and visualise how we will feel when we get there. And then move forward. Being in my 50s is kind of liberating, I have more time to myself now, I am more accepting of myself and I have a deeper appreciation of time. I am not weighed down by other people’s opinions of me and love the person I have grown into. I can laugh at myself and feel empowered. I say no regularly without guilt. There have been hurdles this year,of course, that’s part of life. There has been grief. And things haven’t always gone my way. But ultimately I am proud of the last year. I celebrated the Manchester and Liverpool Lifestyle Awards, I produced Liverpool Fashion Week and I achieved a goal of putting on a fashion show in Cyprus, all of which were a success, not just for me, but for everyone involved. These events give people the confidence to keep going and allow them to recognise their talents within themselves and that makes me proud to be able to give them a platform to do this. I have written a song that’s had national radio play and in the new year will be collaborating with an artist to write an album, I am launching the Lifestyle Music Awards and I have a trip somewhere very exciting in the spring which could propel my life in a completely new direction. Who knows where it will lead me? The past twelve months have been full of both triumph and personal challenges, moments of incredible joy and some loneliness, but countless lessons learned along the way. The year began with lofty ambitions, whilst in the midst of uncertainty and struggle. That uncertainty hasn’t diminished but I keep putting one step in front of the other and I am going with the flow . I have faith that everything will work out. Universal timing will bring everything together for me when it’s meant to be and not when I want it. I have been a little more selfish this year too, taking myself on a solo holiday to Hong Kong which is another bucket list ticked off. I love going on adventures, I love being spontaneous. I put my health first too and my gym classes are a priority over my business meetings. Fortunately being self employed I have the luxury to manage my time and work on my own terms and this freedom has allowed me to create the lifestyle I love. I am being kinder to myself, I do not listen to nasty gossip, I will leave that others and turn down the volume to them. I am not letting the chatter in my head self sabotage for this creates limited beliefs. I have walked away from people who used me and hurt me and recognised those who have supported me and will continue to nurture these treasured friendships. I keep my circle tight, I trust few people now but the people I surround myself with are good people whom I cherish. So as I wind up my work for the year and 2024 draws to to a close, I am filled with gratitude. I will honour this year for the person it has helped me become. I am ready for the new year, not because I have everything figured out, but because I know that whatever comes my way I will meet it with the strength and wisdom that the past year has given me. And I am embracing the new year with excitement for what unfolds, and hopefully it will include a sexy new man, not because I need one, but because I want to share meaningful new experiences with someone I can have fun with. I am human after all. But if it doesn’t hey ho, I am comfortable in my own company and it won’t stop me living the life I blessed with and embracing new adventures, wherever they may lead to.
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